Crashing comes the crescendo

Spectators watch in a compressed row

Fit to watch, not fit to perform

Don't wanna deal but you love the allure

I live with a constant disintegration without a cure

Every day's a rematch I cycle inside a constant tour

Only relate to my senses which I've grown numb to locked in a rotating door

My damage is sentient plotting the end of it

When I'm at precipice greater the drop

When does it stop, not when on top

Strangers just stand in an ignorant gawk

I'm tired of watering blades, I'm tired of plucking these petals

I mow the lawn, clip the weeds

Be done by dawn and wash my knees

Don't revel in dirt or I'll never leave

When the levy's concede it'll cleanse the ground

Weather the storm inside and out

My mom is scared when my head's held down

If I'm lost where I'm found

When I'm about to break down


I let it out

Let it out

Let it out

Let it out

In my secret place (In my secret place)

In my secret place (In my secret place)

In my secret place (In my secret place)

In my secret (In my secret)


Burning itch crawling in my throat that’s not a craving

It’s the bottom of a bottle bred necessity for ailing

The bottom of the barrel filled with ale and all my failings

Oil sparked on purpose I’ve become my own assailant

I laugh at Armageddon and I party with myself

A private get together in a clandestine hell

Clan of sole delusion, pills dancing from my inclusion

I’ve grown to fear I’m inhuman, excluded from institutions

Abandonment of prudence, speeding through red lights

Flickering catharsis but I grab my soul in mid flight

You hypocrite, you pussy, you’re construction with no site

You claimed you were a burning man with no heart, and no sight

Even if I try today my symmetry ain’t perfect

I don’t always think I’m worthless I just live without a purpose

Find nothing intoxicated while drowning in medication

Trials and tribulations composed by a detonation


I let it out

Let it out

Let it out

Let it out

In my secret place (In my secret place)

In my secret place (In my secret place)

In my secret place (In my secret place)

In my secret (In my secret)


Tending to metals, receiving no medals, a pyramid scheme with nature

Forced in a contract where I am the manager, and my depression's creator

No favors to be won, but I'm no longer stunned

Resolution in revelation

I know that I'm never done

I've just got to grow, water myself under the sun

And if I ever load a gun or bleed until it stuns

Suffocate my lungs or eat pills until I'm dumb

I'll never know the outcome of who really won

Actors always lose in a world ruled by the audience

Playing roles necessary for the situation at hand

But there's always demand to put back on our masks

You never wanted the real thing

If you did you'd have asked